Terminal Cancer

On Tuesday, March 3rd I was scheduled to have surgery to remove a cancerous tumor from my colon and additional surgery to resection a different part of my colon. Initially, it was believed that if the tumor was removed, the cancer would be cured and I could get back to eating nachos.

Unfortunately, once I was opened up, it was clear that there was more than one tumor. In facts, there were little tumors all through my abdomen, in the peritoneum, around my small intestine, in the surrounding fat layer, and in the nearly 7 liters of fluid that was drained from my belly.

This means the cancer is an aggressive, Stage-4 and is inoperable and that makes this cancer terminal.

At the moment, I cannot eat or drink. I am able to enjoy some ice chips but the liquid must be pumped out of my stomach routinely. It’s not super comfortable but believe me when I say, the ice chips are complete bliss and my most precious possession right now.

On Thursday, March 5th, I will have a chemotherapy port added to my chest. It is hoped that an early round of chemotherapy will reduce the inflammation in my colon enough for liquids to pass through. This would allow me to subsist on a liquid diet, which would be glorious by comparison to not being able to eat or drink at all. Deciding to do some chemotherapy is more to do with quality of life. I am in no pain right now, but I would REALLY like some apple juice. And if I can get to a place where I can have apple juice, it’s worth the struggle.

There is no chance for a cure but it’s possible the chemotherapy will give me additional months instead of the few weeks I have now.

11 thoughts on “Terminal Cancer

  1. You shall have applejuice ❤ I am so sorry you are going through this. I do not really have words to express. Stick with the chemotherapy regularly, miracles do happen, you never know. I am always here if you need me, an ear, a shoulder, whatever. *hugs*

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  2. Life’s most beautiful flowers are so fragile and so short lived. We can all be blessed to have watched you blossom in the time you had in this realm. We are blessed to have shared in your life as precious as it was. Chi I am always going to remember what a Beautiful flower you are, the kind soul you have, the talent you radiate, you are and always will be one of my most special people to me. I pray for you everyday to find the strength to make it another. I plead with the goddess to keep you from pain, to fill what days weeks months you have left with nothing but love and joy. If you have to leave us I wish it only be in peace and in comfort knowing you made a impact on many lives especially my own . and that my love is immortality.

    With all the love in my heart I have to give
    Adriana Morgan

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  3. I’m so sorry Chisato. I have no words. I pray you can get some relief and enjoy whatever time you have left. It’s so sad. You’re such a lovely person. *hugs*

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  4. Dear Chi,
    even as I didn’t get to know you yet, I find it sad that a young life will end this way. You say 1996-2020. I pray for you that you can reach 2021 at least, and first of all without pain.
    The beauty of life is short
    The beauty of life is bored
    The beauty of life is rough
    The beauty of life is tough
    My thoughts are with you. Be well, enjoy the time you have.
    ♥ Liz ♥
    PS: My next DJ set at Golden Sun will be for you, Mar 13 12:00-02:00 pm SLT.

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  5. I hope you find comfort in your friends and family and get some apple juice. I can only imagine what you are feeling but I KNOW how your friends and Family must feel. I went though the same thing from 2007-2009 with my Father who died 23 Dec 2009 of Stage 4 Metastasized Throat Cancer. I will pray for you and your family. I was very happy to have been your Friend, partings are such bittersweet. Sweet that you have moved on to a better place, bitter cause we will never see you again or hear from you again.

    Hugs and Kisses,
    Sammie Syn

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  6. Flutterby kisses and litle fae hugs.. as many as you can stand! Your loving light shines upon us all. So lucky to feel your warmth and light. ٩(^‿^)۶ Your Ama ✿

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